I gotta pick my self up again… cuz right now I’m lost and I feel like I keep on escaping reality.
I keep on fooling myself, making me feel as if everything is okay when it’s obviously not. and my soul is rotting inside.
So here’s what I can do now:
1. Stop pretending
2. Stop feeling sorry
3. Stop being lazy.
Every point of my life there’s a period of time where I’m miserable, lazy….
anyway… I’ll be doing something productive I think for my l______ong holiday.
I have a plan to:
1. Learn carpentry
2. Learn baking
3. Learn sewing
Learning whatever the fuck that I never bother to learn until now.
I’m trying to be a better person emotionally also. I should visit the church more often, to renew my faith in God.
I should put some picture of me now… but my other laptop crash suddenly and all the backup are there with all my 5000++ songs, movies, pictures and work.
I feel really fucked up now but I guess, no use of crying over it now.
p/s: I really hate the attitude where u just gotta comment on someone’s misery. If you ain’t got something good to say then don’t say anything… BITCH.