Thursday, June 25, 2009

calm down cynta

Guess what.... I got a feeling...
that tonight gonna be a bad night...
I'm gonna get a nightmare...
sure gonna piss in my pants...

lalalalalala...
I'm losing it people.. school will start soon...
RESULT WILL SHOW VERY VERY SOON...

I'm sure lots my classmates will get good result except Jacynta R. Lidi (whom I find it quite irritating that my name is always not in the list, 'That's not my name' by the Tings2 should be my theme song)... Anyway back to sanity!

yes... I am not a very good student... I always lost focus, i always forgot my priorities and always find any fucking excuse to not study my ass off (currently wishing I am some lost princess and should go back to my country LOL). I'm just nervous right now cuz I know it's been a very very long time since I have the right to brag to my parents about my results. Childish as it might seem, i admit i do enjoy the look my parents gave me when I did a good job. But since I started my degree, all i've done is from bad to worst... I wanna blame on something but the truth is it's my own fucking fault, so cheers to being the biggest loser. HAHA...

I can't even think of a good thing to blog... okay... maybe I should bored you guys with my little accomplishment (it is very little).

1. I finished "Assassination of Jesse James" (will review it later).
2. I got a new korean student (which is a devil in disguised).
3. I think I lost weight.
4. I'm not sick anymore!

xoxo
I gotta go get some morphine to calm my nerves...

Sunday, June 21, 2009

It's a sick sick world we live in.

In case you guys haven't heard there's a new video spreading across the internet.
No, it's nothing funny or even new...

It's just plain old VIOLENCE.
and even worse not only the victim is a girl but she is just 16 years old.
It is very... very sad to see how easily others might treat another lives...

All the girl wanted is for her voice to be heard and yet were punished cruelly for her actions.

I will not be showing the video in my blog because I am 100% AGAINST ANY KIND OF VIOLENCE.

but to those who wish to view, here's a link.
click this

This remind me of another video about a girl killed for betraying her fiancee.
That was the worse video I saw and it make me sick to my stomach, I can't even stand to watch that until the end. I really hate it when human's life are treated cruelly, I believe everyone has a freedom for themselves to do anything they want on they freewill.

xoxo
Why?

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Ui... Cam pernah ku lihat tapi di mana ya?

wah... looks familiar right?
check it out...




I am pleasantly surprise that our own land can be this beutiful.
I only uploaded 3 pictures cuz i am so damn lazy to resized... LOL

xoxo
see ya...

Can believe or not

Wah la wei... some fucking pompous-wannabe-mafia con artiste contact me via email and with the most ridiculous name... Okadima Dick?

Aiyo... if you want somebody to help you, you've contact the wrong person lar... I am a broke twenty something and a struggling student... what do you expect me to do ah? My bank acc has almost zero balance (if you know what I mean).

I know exactly what my dad would say when I tell him about this
BANUNG.

LOL... and I was hoping somebody would want that Jack Daniels, I sell it with it's original box bha.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Tuesday Blues

If I have to say out loud what job that I truly hate it would be...
Banquet Waitress.

And the irony is I used to be one and TWICE.
Yes, no matter how much I complained about it, when I am desperate for money I found myself serving delicious food in a wedding function at some 5 star hotel.

Being a waitress is not that bad though, sometimes it can be fun and you can meet many types of personality and maybe some famous people (although it is a rare situation that you might strike any conversation with famous people either than "would you like me clear this for you, Sir").
While working in the hotel makes you feel like as if you're in another realm where time passed unnoticed and forget anything that much more important than the job you are doing. Heck, I don't even realize it was raining outside even when there's windows.

Among the many reason I hated the job was (this is on the very top on my hate list)
THEY ONLY PAY YOU RM3.00 PER HOUR MINUS 2 HOUR FOR YOUR LUNCH AND DINNER!!!
Seems unreasonable and very capitalist to me but what can I say all complains are usually gone unnoticed.

Almost all the time and memories I had while working as a waitress was bad but this top it all.

August or maybe September 2007...
There's no function that day, just setting up the ballroom and a few meeting room lunch. I was getting ready to sign off when Mr Ali (not a real name) announced that My friend and I will be working tonight. At that very moment I really wished I said NO!, but because of MORE JOB HOURS = MORE MONEY... I said okay, beside it the function wasn't in the Ballroom but at the hotel's club, so it might be fun. But how wrong was I... that night was 'Salsa Night'.
Meaning I gotta wear a salsa costume which is not that BAD...

The salsa costume consist of short yellow nylon skirt, and belly showing fluffy shirt...owh and a funny fruit hat to add the silliness to the costume. Really it's not that bad.... BUT, my hat have this VERY BIG YELLOW BANANA that looks too much like someone penis almost made me cry. Although I should be looking like a HOT Latino, I ended up looking like someone that is going to a mental institution any moment.

So with that funny getup and my maid shoes with black men's socks plus the hat keeps on falling off, my boss ordered me to the Host of the evening.... No, not host as if I'm gonna be MCing the event but, opening and closing the club revovling door while welcoming the guest and being there exposing me to public eye. Almost all passer by give me a look of amusement and worst some even point and lough at me...
WHICH IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL! HAHA!

Okay... you are welcome to lough... Even I think this is funny.

xoxo
One good thing about this job I met Edmond.

Monday, June 15, 2009

JACK DANIEL'S


YO... Whoever interested I am selling the Jack Daniel's (7 years).
Only for Kota Kinabalu Area.
You may contact me via email
suicidecandy86@gmail.com or Momentomori86@yahoo.com

Latest Night Fever

1st ROUND of Birthday Bash
Location (as usual) : BB cafe


18 This Year... very olumis sumandak I tell you but unfortunately addicted to Daiki. Any guy can take her away from her obsession I would salute that Guy!






I love FISH AND CHIPS!!! (favorite is at Fish n Co, edmond... blanja sy p makan sana.)

Note to self: NEVER EVER MIX WHISKEY AND GINGER ALE!



Other birthday guest, wewen and wiwin's ex coworker.



The 1st Tequila shot.

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2nd Round of Birthday Bash
ALL GIRLS NIGHT OUT
Location: Jugz, Shenanigans, Barsu and RazzMaTazz













somebody got too much too drink that night. LOL



Not Wewen though... She's the PARTY GIRL right now.

xoxo
That's all for now... SO LONG Bitches!

p/s: we were too busy dancing then taking pictures... LOL

The New Love of my life.

I have a new love and a new fetish!
I WILL ONLY BUY HEELS THAT IS 4 INCHES AND ABOVE!


And What More to LOVE is the price of this KILLER HEELS!
Just fucking RM50.00
Now tell Me where can you get that price for this kind of shoe?

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Letter to Myself

AFTER THIS ENTRY I AM DEDICATING TO PHOTOLOG ENTRY ABOUT OUR LATEST NIGHT FEVER!!!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO DEWINA AND AMY!!!! BE GRATEFUL THAT YOU ARE ALIVE AND HOT! BITCH!

Dear Me,

The more I think about it the more it depressed me. No matter what face I put or how I make a fool of myself will nit change what I feel. I hate it so much cuz it made me hate everything. I know there's no such thing as a time machine or a 'Pintu Suka Hati'... I still find myself wishing that such things existed and I can use it to my advantage. I am selfish, a bit narcisstic, though I never harm anyone other than me, I am misunderstood so many times that I got used to it. So whoever read this entry of mine please IGNORE it... I am just rambling to amend my heart and to stay sane in the public eyes, ( I don't trust shrink). Anyway back to my ramblings... It's easier if I can say this to someone that won't judge me, won't tell me what to do... cuz all I want is someone to listen so I can release this anxiety and tension surrounding me. There's a checklist on people I can talk to me seems like I crossed out everyone and leaving only my own ear to listen to my own misery. In the end all you have is yourself...
Then something teribble happened that made me wish imortality for someone I love. I hate to think that death is waiting at some corner or it might be just in front of you and a few seconds after this you die. NO... I am not feeling suicidal or anything but I am not that eager in living my life also. Right now (this will sound lame) I see two paths in front of me or maybe three or four possibilty after this but all is just my hopes and none is imposibble and yet it seem out of reach and I am push back again to square one. Funny when you see things in a new perspective, it will either makes you feel better or worse. I am lost in my own mind, in my own dilemma. Owh... How dramatic.... I can be such a drama queen even I hate this side of me.Owh... how sweet it is to be in denial...

well it's the end of this ramblings...I'm not sure if I feel any better but I don't feel bad.... I just hope there's NO ONE choose to comment this entry cuz there's a lot of OTHER ENTRIES MORE INTERESTING that this one.

THANK YOU. (i will so fucking hate you if anyone dare to comment)....

LALALALALALALALALALALALA...

AKU LAPAR LA... NDA TAW MAW MAKAN APA? APA YANG SEDAP AH?... NANTILA PIGI CHECK DI ICEBOX... KALI ADA LAGI TU ICECREAM TU. KIMA... BANYAK MAW URUS BISUK... MALASNYA............................. AKU MIMANG PEMALAS, KENAPALA!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Revealing the skeleton inside.

Before I revealed 10 things you don't wanna know about me, give me a chance to justify myself. I am a mere human being with lots of flaw, some you can see clearly and some may be hidden to make me look slighty better. Although I do think some things are better hidden but I'm in the mood to confessed (and I am to hungover to analysis and think about the consequences afterwards, I might consider suicide LOL).

So here goes...

1. I sooooo... fucking HATE using Public Toilet. Even in hotels! and will only use for emergency's emergency. (I hate to know that the toilet seat I am about to used been used probably everyone...)

2. I only started eating vegetable when I started dating Edmond. (was trying to impressed him)

3. I might not be a best friend to anyone but you can count on me on brutal honesty. ( If that fucking dress is damn ugly it would never look good on anyone even you)

4. I HATE tweens. (It's not like I'm the only one, there can be very annoying)

5. I tend to ramble when meeting new people. (Nobody can really understand whether I'm being funny or not)

6. I talk to myself in public.

7. I wash my hands almost every time I touched something. Almost like Monk but I don't really consider myself as a neat freak.

8. I almost have zero empathy, Yes I can be that ignorant.

9. I used to collect stickers.

10. I consider RATS as my arch enemy and will run for cover whenever I saw one.

There You Go... Now You can use this to blackmail me.

xoxo
Some things about yourself is better hidden.


Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Kaamatan At Tadika Datuk Fung

Kaamatan Festival is One of the biggest festival celebrated in Sabah. Kaamatan or Harvest Festival is a thanksgiving festival for KadazanDusunRungusMurut around Sabah. Another way do unify us, even though we might speak different slang and not all our vocabulary is the same still we lived under one big roof and it is a waste of time to divide ourselves. By the way I find that some racist superiority is very annoying.

Kaamatan at Tadika Datuk Simon Fung was held on 28th May 2008, lots of parents attended and all the performance was entertaining. It's not everyday we see kids dressing up and dance our traditional dance right... The most entertaining was by Kidnergarten 2, perfoming a sumazau mix with shuffling and of cuz breakdance by 3 junior Bboys.





Morning Excercise!


Cheeky Brother.


Headmistress in charge.


Magunatip (did I spell that correct?) dance by K.1 Joy


From left: Brandon, Genesis, Yong2, Alden.


Clueless. LOL


The Ben10 kid really could breakdance, will upload vids later.


Doing the shuffle.




Post- party!


There's nothing more dangerous than 5 year olds


In this picture Genesis is actually showing off to his friend that he only ate chili and not ketchup. He manage to awe his audience... LOL


I dunno why he want to imitate Ronald Macdonald.

x0x0
I love SABAH, I love TAMBUNAN, I love KELAWAT.

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