Sunday, February 1, 2009

Chasing Rainbows

Is it no end of this useless chase of mine, where we believe that where rainbows end sun would be shining and sky would be blue. I wish things would be less complicated than this wretched thing in front me. The agonizing fact just keep on torturing me, I wish I could have something to ease the pain, to forget all and pretend everything okay. But what has been done cannot be amend only left rewinding itself like a bad movie inside my head.

My heart stop beating, my body numb, tears flowing through my eyes and I don’t understand why. I don’t want this feeling to exist; I want to delete it instead like a virus its keep attacking me. Wrecking my soul, every bits of it crumbling down turn into dust as the wind slowly blow it away. It’s better to have a knife stabbed to my heart or shot right inside it because pain will only be temporary then only death awaits me. So much better than walking without a soul inside and a fake smile across your smile, lying to yourself again and again.

Stood up and cried out loud, if only I could... instead here I am lying on the pavement with blood all over me knowing that this is the end and no more can be done, a happy ending is just an illusions created by fairytales.

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am having a BAD DRIVING DAY.

WHY?

1. I hit a porthole 3 times (pretty sure there's a big mark on my car).

2. I accidently ran into a "pulau jalan" ( i forgot what it is in english).

3. I almost hit a dog.

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My theme song for today:

Mad by Neyo.


Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

[Verse 1]

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Verse 2]

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Bridge]

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...


1 comment:

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