Thursday, August 28, 2008

genesis

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Dantai beach

as half kota beludian (lol i juz invented that word), i never went sight seeing there as much as i would want to. mainly when i'm there is only to visits relatives and attend our annual family gathering. so it isn't odd for me never once knew that there's a beach there. so last weekend my family and i decided finally to raided that fucking place.
**Aside for the sole purpose for adventure, we actually went there to surprise my SOT sister who participate in an SDA (Seven Day Adventist) Youth day**

there's actually 2 beaches at Kota Belud, the one where we went was Pantai Dantai or Dantai Beach lar... it's still undisturbed by any development though i'm afraid the human species may have already destroyed it. There's rubbish everywhere and too many people flocking without no environment awareness, come on people it's our fucking world!!! Take fucking good care of it not just for our benefits but the whole fucking generations. So before we lost this natural treasure, i'm begging to all kota beludians to start Caring and Aware that our beach is gonna be ruined becouse of us if this doesn't stop.


look at this ruined beauty....






my bro playing... he couldn't resist the sea...




from afar my dad look as if he is lounging with a bootle of beer, it's actually 7up.


XOXO CYNTA

Monday, August 25, 2008

decision, decision...

what should i do?....i hate being in a debt... because i know that i wouldn't want to pay it back... but right now i'm kinda in a dilemma... i'm already in debt for my student loan for 19000 and if apply it again i will be in debt for more than rm 40000. so i was thinking to cancel the loan application but i think it's kinda too late to cancel the fucking loan. ahh... why can't i be some rich kid without no worries about my financial. i hate this... i hate seeing that fucking loan statement. shit...
so here i am, only 22 and already in debt... and will be paying that fucking debt until........until...........until.............. i'm 40 something. maybe this is a reminder for me to save money for my children education, if i have one, one day...

Friday, August 22, 2008

si juuuummmmmuuukkk...

for anyone that don't understand the title... it's Jumuk for Gumuk or Gemuk or Fatty lar oi... i think i've gain some weight... no seriously i'm not gaining but i am fat. shit!!! since when did i become so fat?...

so i am planning to loose some weight if i can... cuz i hate exercises, diet... no can do!!!! so wtf should i do?... herm... it made me miss my high school days when i'm still fit and could run 4 storey high building without feeling exhausted... damn... and looking at my super skinny sister made me so jealous bha... She doesn't need to do anything and still stay oh so slim and beautiful...


My sister smirks at me showing off her slim body. Damn you wewen... this is so unfair... Why do i inherits bapa metabolism.

krambrunai

we were bored so decided to crash krambrunai resort...

so here's the camWhoring results----->


Look scary right?... remind me the way to Beast's castle (Beauty and the Beast).


Nancy and I... camwhoring in the car... huhu


There's even monitor lizard here!!! Pity to them had share their natural habitats with humans.



chess tournament anyone?



The End...

tatoos anyone?

i am fascinated with tatoo... to me it is more like an art form, though i dislike some of the crude design but tatoo is art, is culture, it is life....

why do people do tatoo?... honestly i dunno. i've done it once (should be more), it hurts like hell, the design seem rubbish to me but i don't regret doing it...

so to understand more of this fascination of tatoos, gotta see em real...


this was taken right after i was tatooed...


a few months later...


a friend of mine who turned crazy after getting his 1st tatoo, last known tatoo was on his right leg didn't get the picture though...i'm guessing probably he has tatoo all over him by now...


A tribal tatoo...dunno what the meaning.

when innocence is gone

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I wish I could turn back time and stay on that certain time forever. I wish I’m still a child where no would be no worries for me and I am free of responsibility and free to idolize Spongebob (and not be embarrassed). But I know I couldn't’t do that, there’s no time machine yet invented for me to do that. Isn’t it cool if people could do that, but that would mean people could change history anytime they want. Heck, Elvis might still be in the building, you know what I mean LOL… okay that’s not funny at all.
But I really miss being a kid… I watch my brother play, being carefree as if there’s no war going on in this world, and the world that exist is only through his eyes. Knowing so much is a sin, the more people know the more curious they become and now everybody walking to the devil’s path. LOL But I don’t fucking care about that it’s just how human are made in my opinion, it’s natural for wanting to gain information, to learn, whatever excuses there is for being nosy.
So what I really mean is there’s nothing I can do than moving forward and accepting every single shit anyone could throw to me and maybe after all that I could throw my shit on someone. Life’s shit…

The State of the Union by Douglas Kennedy


State of the Union by Douglas Kennedy

When I picked this book in the library, my 1st thought is this is the writer for “The Pursuit of Happiness” which a movie I saw on DVD and thought it was very good. So I said to myself this book should be a good one and it is.
It’s about an American or generally about America at the mid 60s and 70s an era I'm not even born yet and as a foreigner and totally ignorant about that era, (all I know about 60s is about hippies). This story evolved around Hannah’s (the main character) life. She was in her early twenties when this story started. A normal character and might I say a bit boring for me, she has this incredible very radical parents whom in my opinion I wish my parents are (her father is a radical professor and her mother is a known painter). She wants a very normal life which is opposite to what her parents might expect. She married a doctor and went on living on a small town. There she have this second thoughts about what her life might be if she wasn’t with her husband then came this young men to her life. And of course there will be an affair gone wrong between them and surprisingly she chose to stay with her husband.
The climax of the story is the 2nd part, 34 years later where Hannah now is in her fifties. She has a normal life and living the most of it but then new problem arise. This new problem leads to her unknown affair which became a public matter. This is where it touched lots of subjects. Her infidelity, her role as a mother and all that was judge by public. It surprised me to read about American as a very judge mental and conservative society. Whereas everything about America I saw on TV is how open minded and empathy they felt to almost every suffering nation in the world (Oprah). It makes me mad when I came to the part where Hannah was at the rock bottom and her family deserted her on her time of need. I sympathized Hannah wholly on this part because I don’t think anyone should be left alone at time like that. The selfishness of some of the character is very mean. Maybe it’s true what they say our society nowadays becomes much more selfish and ignorant to other people sufferings.
The book truly succeed in capturing all emotions.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

SURUK




okay... if anyone wondering what the fuck is suruk, i don't even know how to explain... it's an insect that found usually at my kampung(village/hometown/whatever). so here's the odd story about this insect... people eat em... yep... my great grandmama did it and so did my grandmama and i think my dad tried it once... they're fried the insect and my dad keep saying tumis (a dusun word associate with cooking) the thing. the funny thing is my dad keep on telling me this insect lived off cows... not on their dirty backs like those birds but on its shit... huahuahua... i know it's quite an impolite word to put. but i just can't help it... so if there's anyone who could educate me on this insect please email me cuz i really wanna know about this insect scientifically.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Military day

last Saturday was military day here in KK... I'm not quite into this military stuff but it was quite fun that day...

lemme refresh my mind what happened on Saturday...

Morning- Got Presentation...
My very 1st presentation this sem... (i'm a 1st year freshie). it's about concrete grade 30.. though i did almost none of gathering the information, that was courtesy of Zhaky who is an irritating obnoxious fatty... okay it's seems like i'm talking shit about him... i don't want to but he really is... So i'm left with a very insignificant job (i'm not exactly complaining about it), My job is to bring my laptop for the presentation... though i did present some of it... but compare to others my part is very...very... small... then it occurs to me i don't how to display it on the big screen. so there we were looking dumbfounded in front the whole class, until a helpful classmate (whom i dont know his name) come to the rescue... It does make me feel stupid cuz it was so simple and easy.

Afternoon- go home lar...
finally i am home with my parents and lil bro... nothing much happened except that my daddy made his famous curry and made me eat almost all of it...

evening - to the night market
huhu... okay2... so sometimes i bought fake designer item, (as if i'm the only one doing it). so i was planning to find a sunglass for moi... so i took a few experts with me to help me find this valuable item (HAH!!). but the search is to no avail so we went instead to a military day celebration at Padang Merdeka...

here are some of our camwhoring results...






continuation...

this is yet another unfinish work of mine (as if anybody cares i'm explaining)... so here's KOTA KINABALU.

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This is the main place for people under 18 to hang out. and i am guilty as charge for doing it back then... until now i still don't understand the fascination for this place.

used to be my tibi clinic
To me it look like a lab for an Evil professor.. with all that bars and all... But actually it's a clinic for TIBI patients...

the flyover near kramunsing... oldest flyoever in sabah
Okay maybe most of people who never been to Sabah will think sabah is still very kampung... but FYI we already got a flyover build on 2001. (bangga kunun)

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huahua... something doesnt seem quite right

will be continue soon... tadaa...

Friday, August 15, 2008

my daddy

pada hari ini 15 August 2008, my daddy is gonnabe a freelance artist... LOL... he'll be specializing in painting watercolor scenery and will be selling his artwork on ebay and probably at any kaki lima or mall nearby... ROFL... OKAY STOP!!! I don't mean to ridicule my dad... the truth is he really does know how to paint but i never really consider him as a serious artist. it's just seem funny that my daddy who used to be a CEO in a company is considering to be an artist but who am i to say, i am only his oldest daughter. But painting is good for him, (he's probably bored working as our family driver) though it reminds me when he was interested in landscaping and our little garden backyard turn into a half real garden (our house has a problem in the squarefootage department) then a couple months later that garden is destroyed by MR Butch (My puppy now dead). after that catastrophe dad never did rebuild his babylon garden so like the real babylon garden it is HISTORY. so i'm hoping the best to my dad as an inspiring painter...

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si Bapa and Nonok at Ranau's Rose Garden

an exhausted student

aiya... so tired... everyday got things to do. i feel as if i can't keep up with the pace and i feel like a clown...
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and techniquely i am cuz i can't act serious it make my head hurts... LOL... but it's the truth... Yesterday when i was in Academic Writing and Reading Lecture, Mr Mark (The Lecturer) asked us to write a background paragraph on Illegal Immigrants, it's supposed to be a very senang one... but my brain just couldn't process and when he gave ma the newspaper article, my keep playing Disturbia by Rihanna over and over again. all those words seem to be latin and i couldn't understand any of it. and to make things worse when Mr Mark ask me to point a definition, i was dumbfounded... and i had to ask a friend of mine (whom i regard as an intellectual snob) to help me to point it out and the answer turn out to be so obvious, i wish i'm an ostrich so i could hide my head in a hole (but that would be stupid).

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my view of KK




my view of KK

okay la.... not yet finish... it's supposed to be a photo album about KK in my point of view. still havent's got any photo that qualified to be publish... this is just a glimpse of the album that will be coming soon...

it makes me wanna puke...

herrmm... i don't mean to be judgemental but why do women that got abused or unhappy with their past relationship always end up with the people that made them unhappy. fortunetly i haven't got the opportunity to be miserable with someone... but what am i kiddin, i don't have the rights to crictize anyone becouse i am not perfect myself. but lord... i can't help it... this issue still makes my stomach swirl... and no matter how others help to influence them to leave the relationship, those women still wind up with the same guy who made them miserable, it is as if they stuck in a cricle and couldn't find the way out or probably blinded their eye so they wont see the exit to their misery. It's not my problem but why do i pity them? why do i still try to help them when it's obviously to no avail. i wish i could slap them and said you are better off without him and be done with it... and i could think of at least 2 pathetic women who needed a slap.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

my obsession on PS I LOVE YOU

THIS SCENE MADE ME CRY...

P.S. I love you Photoshoot


i am so obsess with this movie... its a love story and a chick flick but i just so...so... obsess with it... i watch it almost ... i even lost count how many times i watch it... LOL... and i cried everytime i watch it and now i think i know the dialogue, storyline, scene by heart as if i'm the one written the story... LOL... okay enough of that... lets be logical for a minute... because i'm in the mood of analyzing myself, I think the reason i'm obsess with is becouse probably i'm hoping i would get a love life like that (minus my husband dying lar...) and Gerard Butler is the hottest man alive. I mean who doesn't want a husband like Gerry, he's attractive, funny, sweet, charming and he even can sing. I can imagine him singing a lullaby to me right now...LOL... Gerard Butler played Gerry so well I thought that Gerry really does exist... the other character doesn't gave me that much impact on me... But still it's a good story but pity it doesn't make me wanna read the book becouse in my opinion this movie cannot be told by any other than Gerry.
Okay, scene that made me cry is (TOP 3) :
1. When Holly called Gerry's Cell after the funeral just to hear his voicemail.
2. When Holly asked Gerry to turn off the light only to realised Gerry's gone then saw "Gerry" on the couch playing his guitar (Gerard Butler Should be a Singer).
3. After Holly got rid of Gerry's things and felt Gerry cuddling her.













Friday, August 8, 2008

apa la...


i am bored.... i dunno what to do... my head keep on thinking that there's still a thousand things i should do right now... e.g My essay assignment. but all i wanna do is lie down and do nothing at all... just sleep, play, eat (makes me sound like a cat)... today there's nothing interesting happened to me (yet), still figuring out how to find income so my wallet will again be fat with 'ringgits'.

Helllowwww....World!!!


the world according to me... LOL. I see the world full of colors... though a lot of them have too many dirty stain... so it's neither sinful nor innocent to me... the world gives you a lot of shit, i agree cuz when i went to campus i could smell shit... i see a lot of fakers tough have nothing against them cuz nobody is honest and truthful nowadays... i see some honesty in people though very..very... rare. i see innocent kids but spoiled and is a brat... i see dirty politics... i see...well i saw a lot... and things could be pretty once in a while you just gotta look for it...

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